Well, it's been 2 years since I last gave John a kiss and said goodbye. I had suspected, but didn't really know how tough life would be without him by my side. We had such a great life together, ups and downs yes, but a true friendship and love. I will never have that again and that knowledge has been my challenge these last 2 years. I have spent this time learning about myself. My life had always been focused on creating a family and growing that family, now it's me I am growing. I'm reading a lot and contemplating my (and all of humanity's) place in this universe of ours.
I'm ok, always a bit melancholy for the experiences of the 45 years with John, but learning new things and enjoying being part of all of your lives. I am proud of all of you kids, you'e amazing! I really can't believe I have lived 2 years without John. I think about him every day and miss him every day, but I'm becoming my own person and I hope I will be able to offer wisdom, love and inspiration.
I heard a song lyric from Birdy that will be a mantra for this next bit: "If we're strong enough to let it in, we're strong enough to let it go." on we go.
Connie